I am a good mother to my children, I love them more than anything and I provide for them, I'm doing my best with the cards that I have been dealt just like every other parent out there who has a child with a disability hidden or not, we are ploughing throw when the days are hard and the nights are long and lonely, we cry in silence and reface what we need to with a smile and would never know how sad we actually feel or how lonely we actually are, we ask people if they are okay because we don't want them to feel how we do so we make the extra effort no matter what is thrown at us, we never give up and trust me we are kicked down a lot, but that is what makes us special kind of people, the compassion we carry for others instead of coming selfish and wallowing in self pity and indulgence and the irony is beautifully imperfect, don't ever change and try not to let the world change you.
Please please please listen to me when I tell you this, my children are coming out the other end, but at one point we couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel we genuinely thought that we would be stuck in this hole forever but I promised my heartbroken husband all them years ago that if there was one thing I was going to do is make sure me, him and those babies of ours would be okay, even if I had to claw my way out of this hole carrying the weight of my family, communicate and never stop communicating, being able to communicate is a gift, treasure that.
Honestly speaking until I became a mother I didn't realise that you literally sacrifice everything for these babies, who teaches you this kind of stuff? No one sits you down and says "Hey guess what, you'll never be able to be sick again or Make the most of your full nights sleep whilst you can because once them babies are here you are screwed" But when you have a child(ren) No one tells you or pre warns you that you LEGITIMATELY under no circumstances can not get ill or go man down or that you will need to run a house hold like its a military operation as though your country depended on it- I take that back actually, because my children do depend on a house hold that it regimented with structure and routine! Haha.